Stupid

Heyho.

I'mma let you know exacly how impossibly stupid I am. HOW COULD SOMEONE FORGET TO GO TO A TREATMENT?! Yeah I know someone. ME! ahhhh I am so dead, how could I sleep in? WHY DID I GO TO SLEEP AT 6 A-FUCKING-M ?! Sorry, I'm pissed. And my dog is annoying me, why can't he just leave me alone?

So, I'm having fun, talking to Jaanika, haha. Hehe. :D And I'm trying to message Kayleigh back. Shit, my head is empty. And my wrist is moving. YAY. Oh I should eave the big talk next to the picture. So, I was thinking that someone, who I've been crushing over for over an year now, deserved a place in this blog. So, THIS IS JOE JONAS! I have an awful issue with a caps lock right now. Don't ask me why. Just roll your eyes.

I should probably stop crushing over him, but he's just so goodlooking! Without that beard his growing lately, but I totally love his LVATT ( Lines, wines and trying times ) look. It's totally hot. Yeah, JoeyTeddy (wink for Ingrid) .

But - lalalaaa. I should probaly go and put something cold on my eye, which is bitching again. Shithead. Gahgah, I'm gonna watch a movie where Jared is starring again! I've seen it, but I don't care, it's a great movie! HIGHWAY! I've watched it about five times now. Good for me!


So, the song. ... something from my chemical romance, I think. CANCER! caps lock again *eyeroll* I totally love this song, for I don't even know how long, possobly close to the day when the black parade came out .. possibly. I've loves mcr for so long now. KaAAAAH, but the song is here. AND I CAN PLAY IT ON PIANO!!! NANANANAAAAAAAA!

Cancer

Turn away,

If you could get me a drink of water 'cause my lips are chapped and faded

Call my aunt Marie, help her gather all my things

And bury me in all my favorite colors,

My sisters and my brothers, still I will not kiss you,

'Cause the hardest part of this is leaving you.

Now turn away, 'cause I'm awful just to see

'Cause all my hairs abandoned all my body,

Oh, my agony,

Know that I will never marry,

And baby, I'm just soggy from the chemo,

We're counting down the days to go

It just ain't living and I just hope you know

That if you say goodbye tonight
I'll ask you to be true

'Cause the hardest part of this is leaving you

'Cause the hardest part of this is leaving you

That's it for tonight. TOODLES!

'

Ingrid

HAH! I'm not gonna leave this blog without this girl in it. She's just toooo awesome for this. And she always makes me laugh. Yay.


She's gonna be on the picture of this post. She totally deserves it. Trust me. And she's gorgeous. Just warning.

   

She's totally hot isn't she. Too bad you like her, she's all mine. FUCK YOU!

And the song is gonna be our song, you have to admit it girl. this is our song. plus double rainbow, but it's kinda more of a joke :D

please be mine

They come and go but they don't know

That you are my beautiful

I try to come closer with you, but they all say we won't make it through

But I'll be there forever, you will see that it's better

All our hopes and our dreams will come true

I will not disappoint you

I'll be right there for you 'til the end, the end of time

Please be mine

I'm in and out of love with you trying to find if it's really true

oh no no no no

How can I prove my love if they all think I'm not good enough

But I'll be there forever you will see that it's better

All our hopes and our dreams will come true

I will not disappoint you

I will be right there for you 'til the end

The end of time

Please be mine

I can't stop the rain from falling

Can't stop my heart from calling you

It's calling you

I can't stop the rain from falling

Can't stop my heart from calling you

It's calling you

I can't stop the rain from falling

Can't stop my heart from calling you

It's calling you

But I'll be there forever, you will see that it's better

All our hopes and our dreams will come true

I will not disappoint you

I will be right there for you 'til the end

The end of time

Please be mine

TOOODLES!

'

Pain

Hey y'all.

This post is going to be short. I'll write as much as I can, but I really can't type. Not like I usually do. Ow. So, I got into my old celebrity crushes today. Adam Lambert. I almost forgot how incredible he is. And his ... everything. SO ADAM LAMBERT!

So I was thinking about the song, and thought that we are broken by paramore would fit quite well with my mood. Maybe - maybe not. It's a great song either way.

So why I'm such a slow writer eh. There is something wrong with my left wrist, and today was the first day of my ten-days-long-treatment. And my hand hurts like shit - but sometimes for a minute or longer it just goes numb. Just like that. And it's blue, so yah. I mean I love blue as a color, but my wrist doesn't look too good when it's all blue and swelled. Quite hatin' on my wrist right now.

I've been good today tho. I've gone through my Itunes and listened something from about every artist I have there. ADAM TOO! <3

Of course I couldn't stay away from  30stm for long, so I touched my top 25 most played too. ( which is ALL 30stm songs )

But the song, eh.

We are broken

I am outside and I've been waiting for the sun

With my wide eyes I've seen worlds that don't belong

My mouth is dry with words I cannot verbalize

Tell me why we live like this

Keep me safe inside, your arms like towers

Tower over me

Cause we are broken,

What must we do to restore our innocence?

And oh, the promise we adored

Give us life again cause we just wanna be whole

Lock the doors cause I like to capture this voice

it came to me tonight

So everyone will have a choice

And under red lights I'll show myself it wasn't forged

We're at war

We live like this

Keep me safe inside, your arms like towers

Tower over me

Cause we are broken

What must we do to restore our innocence?

And oh, the promise we adored

Give us life again cause we just wanna be whole

Tower over me

Tower over me

And I'll take the truth at any cost

Cause we are broken

What must we do to restore our innocence?

And oh, the promise we adored

Give us life again cause we just wanna be whole

Toodles!




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Out of the blue

HEYY!! that's going to be a quick one. I kind of decided, that if I don't want to look too obsessed I should stop putting Jared's pictures up, so here comes something different. GERARD WAY EVERYONE!

HE




IS


SO




HOT







And post's song is the reason why I'm posting at all. IT'S BY ME ! I wrote it at the beginning of this week. For a one-shot. But my mind is stuck, so I'll but it up here.

out of the blue

You never made it easy, I never understood,

I looked, I kissed, I held your hand, and never wanted to let go.

Maybe when I closed my eyes, I wouldn't see you.

Maybe when I'd say goodbye, I wouldn't feel you.

Your hands so soft, your eyes so blue,

I made my wish now it's coming true.

I never really understood the moon.

Yeah.

You never made it easy, I never understood,

I looked, I kissed, I held your hand, and never wanted to let go.

Now it's time to fly, feel the breeze,

how I've cried, now my heart is freezed,

still I can't complain, I knew you, oh.

Out of the blue.

Shutterd by the memories, desperate for the pain,

Maybe now I know, I'd never close that road.

The stars can show us the path, that takes us to the start.

I shouldn't write it all down, I should wait alone, too.

You never made it easy, I never understood,

I looked, I kissed, I held your hand, and never wanted to let go.

Now it's time to fly, feel the breeze,

how I've cried, now my heart is freezed,

still I can't complain, I knew you, oh.

Out of the blue.

Cut the tears, feel your heart,

it's telling you to lose.

Leave your lies, live your life,

start with new time, you.

You never made it easy, I never understood,

I looked, I kissed, I held your hand, and never wanted to let go.

Now it's time to fly, feel the breeze,

how I've cried, now my heart is freezed,

still I can't complain, I knew you, oh.

Out of the blue , yeah.

Out of the - blue.

Toodles!

It's just a beautiful lie

Hey, I just got up. It's 11:51 am out here. Damn, I missed 11:11 again. No wish today. Not that I believe in it, I just find it fun to do.

So I thought that it would be great to add something pretty to each post I make. So, here comes the pretty picture. Don't roll your eyes. I'm that crazy teenage fan girl.

Isn't he just amazing? He's breath-takingly beautiful - for what I call irresistable. He has an amazing acting skills. And he has an amazing voice. This quite gives me the picture of a perfect man. I can't say anything about his personality, 'cause unfortunately I don't know him, but I think that he's kind of badass. I mean if he would be all this gentelman and friendly. He's be perfect and we all know that noone can be perfect.

So I watched Camp Rock 2 last night. I didn't like it, tho I got a new song for my Itunes. Nick Jonas - Introducing me. It's different from the others. It was one highlight that this movie had. The other one was Joe. All the way. Tho I don't like Jonas Brothers I still love Joe. I guess he's the one thing that I can't leave in the past from obsessing over JB. :D

Now that my music has changed. I've started to put bad words into my lyrics. I guess MCR and 30STM affect me that much.

So I'm starting to pull things together again. The picture of the post was Jared again. Everyone clap for him. And the song of the day is gonna be something that is really surprising. Not to someone who doesn't know me, but sience I've actually been a Nick Jonas hater for over an year now, but sience I told like the band, I
can't hate it's members. So the song of the day is Nick Jonas - Introducing me.

I, I'm good at wasting time

I think lyrics need to rhyme

And you're not asking, but I'm trying to grow a moustache

I eat cheese, but only on pizza, please and sometimes on a homemade quesadilla

Otherwise it smells like feet to me.

And I, I really like it when the moon looks like a toenail

And I love you when you say my name

If you wanna know

Here it goes, gonna tell you this

The part of me that'll show if you're close

Gonna let you see everything, but remember that you asked for it

I'll try to do my best to impress, but it's easier to let you take a guess at the rest

But you wanna hear what lives in my brain, my heart, will you ask for it, for your perusing?

At times confusing, slightly amusing introducing me

Doo doo, doo doo doo doo to

Doo doo, doo doo doo doo to

La la la la

La la la la la la la la, da

I never trust a dog to watch my food,

And I like to use to the word "dude" as a noun, or an adverb, or an adjective

And I've never really been into cars I like really cool guitars and superheroes

And checks with lots of zeros on 'em

I love the sound of violins and making someone smile

If you wanna know

Here it goes

Gonna tell you this

The part of me that'll show if you're close

Gonna let you see everything, but remember that you asked for it

I'll try to do my best to impress, but it's easier to let you take a guess at the rest

But you wanna hear what lives in my brain, my heart, will you ask for it, for your perusing?

At times confusing, possibly amusing introducing me

Well, you probably know more than you ever wanted to

So be careful when you ask next time

So if you wanna know

Here it goes

Gonna tell you this

The part of me that'll show if you're close

Gonna let you see everything, but remember that you asked for it

I'll try to do my best to impress, but it's easier to let you take a guess at the rest

But you wanna hear what lives in my brain, my heart, will you ask for it, for your perusing?

At times confusing, hopefully amusing introducing me

Doo doo, doo doo doo doo to

Doo doo, doo doo doo doo to

Doo doo doo doo

Introducing me

I guess it's just about the fact that I agree with him. Cheese does smell like feet. And it is good only on pizza. And it's nice when lyrics rhyme. I like it. Anyways. I'm off.

Toodles!